Painstakingly

I lied today.

I had no choice because they gave me none. WHY?

I knew they wouldn take my words because they had WHAT to believe.

Sounds confusing? It is and it is more than what i have written here.

SLAPS hard on my face like the downpour on my back because i have fallen flat on face again.

Dont pick me up but give me a hand so i will get up and start IT all over.

Fishing for memories - lost all that i had.

the blame was not on me at least...thanks to my lie!

How ostensible can I be as much as i HATE anythin to do with LIES?